A Personal Note for my "GHOST"

Hi, the thing i am going to write here is neither a LOVE LETTER, nor a LOVE TIP.. its just something personal which I want to say to my "Ghost" through my site.. i hope my "Ghost" will read it....

My dear "Ghost", 

i cant take your name in my site due to some reasons, 

i never thought that  i will get this much close to u and u will become my need... i will never ever forget these 15+ days which u enjoyed in India, your msgs and the fights we did through sms... although we never meet and i stayed abt 2000 km + from you but i can always feel your smile, your sadness and can feel u and ur feelings.. may be this Note is SOUNDING kind of CRAP and STRANGE... so my req. for those who r reading this is plz stay away from it.. as its quite valuable for me and so special for me and this "Ghost" has a very special place in my HEART... 

     Coming back to the topic, really yaar i never thought that i will become this much close to you and just want to say few things, as its 12 AM currently and after 9 hr u will left INDIA but not place from my heart (Bum)..

Do you remember our phone conversation? My goal was the love of a lifetime and a lifetime of love with a person who knows me, who understands me... (although i knw my search is not over yet, but still i wish if i will get a girl like you then i will be so happy :) That is not much to ask is it?  That is me, swinging for the fences and expecting great things.  It will always sadden me that I did not get to share that life with you.

You may have thought, in the last few months, that you had forever missed out on that life with me.  That was not true.  If at any time, you boldly stepped forward and stated that you wanted nothing more than a lifetime of love with me, you would have received a seemingly unending hug and a shoulder wet with my tears.

Instead, you have made some relationship decisions that have troubled . You are a good and trusting person, but I think you are also vulnerable due to the unresolved sorrows in your life.  I am saddened that my love wasn’t able to do more to heal your wounded heart.

It appears our relationship has dwindled down to a one way conversation via e-mail. Although you may read them, I feel they don’t really reach you.  It has been very disheartening to be pushed out of your life for the sake of a rebound relationship with one of the walking wounded in the battles for love.  I thought I accounted for more in your life.

So, this is goodbye. I will miss you Faire Princess, just as I have in every moment in so many last days... that I have been going through.  My heart was never really satisfied unless I was holding you in my arms. I have loved loving you and being loved by you.  You have grabbed hold of my love and embraced it like no one else ever has.

Please give me a call when life allows you to enjoy a warm hug, a good meal and one of our loving heart-to-heart talks on the couch.  I will look forward to that day... if it ever comes.

Goodbye My Ghost

and plz stay in touch through mails :)

NOTE- Some of the parts of mail are taken from forum, some other site and after many things i joined them and formed a letter, though i knw i am not good in writing but i hope that, the person whom i want to tell this UNDERSTAND